Total pages in book: 67
Estimated words: 62543 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 313(@200wpm)___ 250(@250wpm)___ 208(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 62543 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 313(@200wpm)___ 250(@250wpm)___ 208(@300wpm)
“Then leave with me?” John asks.
“Will you listen if I…” I can’t finish. He won’t believe me, or worse, it’ll push him farther away.
“Robin, whatever Jay told you-”
I shake my head and close my eyes. “This isn’t something he told me, John.” My voice is hard and unforgiving.
“I love you, John. You don’t remember me, but I think you love me, too,” I tell him, exposing everything I’m most afraid of. “Just don’t leave me. Not yet. Not until I can tell you everything.”
Chapter 23
Robin
I’m not used to waiting this long. I pick at my nails, wondering if I’ve ruined everything. Wondering if I should try to find him. I wish there were a clock in here. Something. Anything to fill up the silence.
My eyes drift back to the only constant in the room. The camera that’s facing me.
The light isn’t on, but it feels like it’s taunting me that much more with it off. Like the cameras never mattered. Nothing did. It was going to happen regardless.
I slide off the bed, feeling restless and with an anxiety that won’t go away. I hate that camera. I hate the blinking red light. I swallow thickly as I walk toward it. My throat is tight as I remember how the monster’s breath felt against my neck like a sticky fog. How my body screamed in pain and the bed shook as he took something from me I could never have back. I stared at the red light through my tears. Watching it blinking and recording everything. Just watching it all happen to me.
And there wasn’t a damn thing I could do to stop it.
I stopped screaming, I stopped crying. I had nothing left but the fucking light to take me away.
Pathetic. I’m fucking pathetic. The faint memory flashes before my eyes.
A cry rips through me as my fist swings in the air, slamming against the cold metal of the camera.
Fuck you! Then it crashes to the floor and I scream as I reach down and grab it before cracking it against the unforgiving floor again.
I was never pathetic. My teeth grind together as his face stares back at me. The face of a monster. Nothing but coldness in his eyes.
I hate him. I hate what he did to me and how I can never change it.
I scream out as I pick up the stand and slam it over and over against the broken camera. Small pieces of metal scatter as I recklessly destroy each and every piece I can. My muscles scream and the adrenaline pumps faster and faster, but I’ve never felt so alive. So liberated.
Jay’s father did something to me; he changed me forever. But I won’t let him define me. That will never define who I am.
My shoulders rise and fall with each heavy breath. No more fucking camera. No more of this. I won’t do it anymore. I’m done with this shit.
I swallow my nervousness, my hands still trembling as I loosen my grip and let the leg fall to the ground. My body shakes as I look around, but instead of feeling crazed, instead of feeling scared by what I’ve done, I feel nothing but triumphant.
A creak to my right makes my body jolt.
I turn toward the door as it opens, breathing heavily, feeling invisible and empowered.
“Little bird,” Jay tsks, his boots smacking on the cement floor as he makes his way to me. “That wasn’t a very nice thing to do,” he says with a hint of condescension in his voice. But the corner of his lips curls up into a half smile.
I break his gaze to look at the shattered camera laying in pieces on the ground.
“I fucking hate it,” I mutter beneath my breath.
“So you broke it?” he asks me, his voice tinged with surprise. My palms turn sweaty as I look into his eyes, hoping to find approval. He stops in front of me, his broad shoulders and chest at my eye level and dominating me with his presence alone. There’s a power about Jay that’s undeniable, a confidence and demeanor that won’t be denied.
“Yes,” I answer him and wait for his reply. Clinging to the hope that he’ll understand. It’s not just a camera. It’s something more. A pain I can’t describe. He nods his head once and then looks past me at the pile of broken pieces on the floor.
“It’s funny that you break what you hate… yet I seem to be the opposite?” Jay speaks in a riddle, not quite to me, maybe more to himself.
“I didn’t mean to,” I tell him quickly. “I’m just…,”
“Angry,” Jay answers for me.
“Yes,” I answer him in a whisper. He takes a step closer to me, filling in the space between us with heat. His large hands wrap around my hips and I slowly move my hands up to his lower back. Both of us are testing boundaries. My heart beats quickly as I tilt my head up. His hands move down and to my backside. He squeezes my ass and pulls me into him, hard and with a force that makes me gasp.