Total pages in book: 114
Estimated words: 103918 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 520(@200wpm)___ 416(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103918 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 520(@200wpm)___ 416(@250wpm)___ 346(@300wpm)
I could only sit there in stunned silence, staring toward the television, while Gideon was getting us some drinks. Never in a million years had I believed it would be possible for me to once again enjoy something that had been such an important part of my life for so long.
"You okay?" Gideon asked as he settled in behind me. "Lex?" he said softly when I didn’t respond. He wrapped an arm around my chest. He was clearly worried, so I turned my face so he'd see my expression.
"Thank you, Gideon," I said and then I risked reaching a hand up to search out the back of his neck so I could pull him down for a kiss. I realized it wasn’t really necessary because even before my fingers came into contact with his skin, his mouth was on mine. There was nothing tame or sweet about this particular kiss. It was raw and hungry and desperate.
When Gideon and I came up for air, we were both breathing hard. I could tell that Gideon's mouth was still near mine because I could feel his breath drifting over my lips.
"Do you, um, want to keep playing?” he asked uncertainly.
My stomach was in knots as I shook my head. I'd loved every moment of playing the game with him, but right now, I needed something more.
I needed him.
All of him.
So I slowly shook my head again at the same time that I whispered, "No" and prayed to anyone who would listen that Gideon heard what I wasn't brave enough to say.
Chapter Twenty
Gideon
While I might not have had much experience when it came to dating, reading Lex and knowing what he needed came as naturally to me as breathing. Though it hadn’t always been that way. Over the past several weeks as I’d spent more and more time with him as he’d comforted me while I’d begun the process of finally mourning everything I'd lost, I'd had the opportunity to pick up on the things that Lex did in addition to the things he said.
Getting the video game console had been a huge gamble on my part, but after hearing Lex talk about the role video games had played in his life, I'd wanted to give a little bit of that back to him. I’d wanted him to always know that even if he couldn’t see something, it didn't mean it was lost to him.
I'd enjoyed both playing the game with him and watching him as he'd played it, but now as his mouth moved beneath mine, I had no interest in what was happening on the television screen. All my senses were in tune with Lex.
As I kissed Lex hungrily, his fingers pressed into my thighs. His ass was notched up against my lap so there was no doubt that he had to be feeling the erection that was quickly becoming more and more prominent. Over the past few weeks, my grief had tempered my sex drive, but it was back with a vengeance and I had no interest in thinking about the consequences of what was about to happen between us. All I cared about was that I was finally going to make Lex mine. From the way he was returning my kisses, I knew in my gut that he was ready too.
But despite my body's obvious readiness, my mind still had some catching up to do. I pulled my mouth from Lex's and tried to catch my breath before whispering, "Tell me what to do, Lex."
He seemed to know what I was talking about because he brushed his mouth over mine and then responded with, "Just love me, Gideon."
My heart seized in my chest because I wasn't sure if he was talking about making love to him or actually loving him.
I did love him. I was scared to death of it, though. What I felt for Lex was a thousand times more powerful than what I’d felt for Serena, and while I knew he would never hurt me the way she had, if he didn't feel the same about me, I wasn't sure my heart would recover. So I chose to focus on the making love part because it was all my heart could really handle at the moment.
I kissed Lex again, then climbed to my feet. I reached down and wrapped my fingers around his hand to help him up. As soon as he was standing, I pulled him against me so our bodies were flush and then I was kissing him again. I forced myself to break the kiss before it got too intense and then I led him to my bedroom. He was back in my arms the moment we reached the bed. This time, it was Lex who controlled the kiss and I was just fine with that. His warm hands sought out my lower back.