Total pages in book: 104
Estimated words: 99951 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 500(@200wpm)___ 400(@250wpm)___ 333(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 99951 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 500(@200wpm)___ 400(@250wpm)___ 333(@300wpm)
She looks physically wounded by my declaration.
“How can you ignore that?” I ask, my voice already fading.
Then she forcefully shakes her head, wanting no more of this discussion. “Good night, Emmett.”
Jacobs is there closing the door after she steps inside her grandmother’s house. He gives me a disapproving frown as if discouraging me from trying to go in after her.
Fuck.
I curse under my breath as I head back to my car.
I don’t know what I expected Lainey to do when I showed up at the club tonight—throw herself in my arms? She did, however briefly.
This situation is complicated and messy and I worry we’re approaching a point where for her, enough is enough. No matter the past we share or the undeniable chemistry between us—it might not be worth it to her. I can’t bear the thought.
I ride back to my house in silence, replaying everything she told me on Christmas Eve.
Her insistence that her feelings for me are in the past doesn’t hold water.
She kissed me in that dark corner tonight. I felt her desire.
Right now, she’s scared and angry. Her defense mechanism has always been to pull back and self-isolate, to shrink herself down into corners and hide. She thinks she’s protected as long as she keeps me at arm’s length, but I won’t allow it.
I owe Lainey a fight, not just the Lainey I know now, but the girl I met when she was thirteen, the girl I gifted my library books to, the girl who kept them all this time.
The following evening, I show up at Fay Davenport’s house with flowers in hand. I knock and stand there, straightening my tie, feeling as fidgety as a teenager about to pick up his prom date. Jacobs opens the door, and I watch his lips purse in disapproval as he takes me in.
“I’d like to see Lainey.”
He nods tersely and grants me entry into the foyer, but he doesn’t invite me to take a seat or make myself comfortable. He disappears down the hall, and the grand house’s silence bears down on me from all sides.
A row of pictures on a marble entry table captures my attention. It’s Lainey through the years: proudly showing off two missing front teeth, about to walk in for her first day of elementary school, smiling and holding her college diploma. There’s even a photo of her during the time I knew her at St. John’s. I lean down to get a closer look, and emotion tightens my throat. I recognize the location right away. She’s at St. John’s sitting on the grass in between the rose garden and the lake. She’s wearing that pink tulle dress and she has perfect ringlet curls in her hair. It strikes me as odd that her grandmother chose to frame the photo, because Lainey doesn’t look happy. She’s not smiling at the photographer. She’s looking back over her shoulder at the camera, her pale green eyes pleading for something.
When I was at St. John’s, I knew Lainey was young and fragile, but seeing her now through the eyes of an adult, it seems impossible that she could have survived such a place.
“She isn’t receiving visitors at the moment,” Jacobs says with a jut of his chin.
I stand up and nod. “Right.”
Well seeing as how I have no plans to mow down a butler well into his sixties, I set the flowers down in front of the photos of Lainey and ask him to make sure she gets them. Then I leave with plans to return the next day.
And I do.
I even develop a routine. I leave work and stop by a florist right by my house so they can put together a bouquet for me.
“Another?” the owner asks with a wink. “You certainly know how to spoil her.”
Then, I go and stand in Fay Davenport’s foyer. Ten minutes, fifteen minutes, twenty minutes…Lainey never shows.
By the sixth day, I decide maybe the flowers aren’t right. So, I stop in at a bookstore instead.
It doesn’t take me a long time of perusing the aisles before I land on The Midnight Library. I read it a few years ago and loved it; it felt like a book I immediately wanted to discuss with someone. Now, Lainey can be that someone.
I purchase the book and go through the now-familiar routine of knocking on Fay Davenport’s door and contending with a displeased Jacobs.
He opens the door and delivers a drawn-out “Yes?”
I brush past him, walking into the foyer so we can get this dog and pony show on the road.
“Jacobs, you look well this evening.”
He clears his throat, trying hard to continue to find me unamusing, but his act can only go on for so long. At this point, we’re practically friends.
He closes the door and turns to assess me. “No flowers this evening?”