Total pages in book: 89
Estimated words: 81390 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 81390 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
If I fuck her and then walk away somewhere down the line, I would be robbing her of being adopted by dad for no reason, for just a few moments of pleasure. That’s not something I can do to her and live with myself. But the feelings I had tonight were more than enough to tell me that walking away from her isn’t something I can do.
The thought of not being the one there to protect her when she needs me feels worse than anything I’ve ever experienced. And let’s not talk about what went through me when the others were staring her down. Imagining someone else with his hands on her makes me more incensed than I’ve ever been.
That’s how I know that I’ve only been lying to myself. There’s no way I can live in a world where she’s not mine, where we go off and live separate lives with different people. I’ve finally accepted the truth of my own feelings; that she’s mine, and she’s always going to be mine.
After tonight I’ll make sure that she knows it too so that there’s no confusion moving forward. If she was looking for an experimental fuck to see what all the hype was about, something I’d wondered about in the past, she was about to get more than she bargained for.
Because there’s something in me for her that I didn’t even know I was capable of. It’s a kind of wild possessiveness that defies all reason, and I know that once unleashed, there will be no turning back. I’ll worry about what to tell dad tomorrow. My mind even touched on the worst-case scenario, but I fought it back.
If I have to, I’ll find a way to support us both if dad decides to throw us out of the house. My savings can take care of us for a year, at least, and I wouldn’t be the first guy to have to work while going to college if it comes to that. Females apparently don’t think about this shit, but as the man who’d, in essence, be fucking up her life, I have to.
I slipped out of my room and walked the few feet down the hallway to hers, pushing the door open to find her standing in the middle of the room waiting for me. Now she looked shy and unsure of herself, and I wondered for a fleeting second if she was still thinking about what that ass had tried to do, but when she looked up at me, I knew that she wasn’t.
How could I forget that she’s a virgin? Maybe because of her boldness here of late, I’d overlooked that fact, but now I could see the nerves and a little hint of fear in her. I closed and locked the door just to be safe though I didn’t expect anyone to come looking for us in the middle of the night. Dad hasn’t checked in on me since I was about twelve.
I walked over to her and threw the box of condoms on the bed. Her eyes flew to them, and her cheeks reddened before she looked back at me. “You can stop me at any time, do you understand? If you feel unsure in anyway…” She took the few steps needed to close the gap between us and took my face in her hands, bringing my mouth down to hers.
She was still nervous but being brave, and it hurt when I recalled how I’d pushed her away all those times before without giving her an explanation. I wrapped her up tight, hoping that this would erase the hurt I’d caused. There was no hesitation in me, no second thoughts. It seems that once I made up my mind to give her what she wants, what we both want, that all my doubts just faded away.
I never realized how tiny she was before. She felt like the most precious thing I’d ever held, and all that she represents came crashing down on me at once. I never felt this level of love and protectiveness with anyone before, and somewhere deep inside knew that I never would again. She’s going to be my forever. “Are you ready for me?”
Tyler
She nodded her head against my chest, and I could feel the tension as I held her in my arms. “I don’t know what to do.” It’s amazing what those words did to me, how they made me feel. I’m a hypocrite because I never gave a fuck before whether the girl I was smashing had been around the block a time or two and didn’t much care since my heart and soul was never involved, but with her, that shit made my dick harder and my heart race faster.
“I’ll show you.” Gone was the hoyden of the past week, and in her place was the shy sweet girl I’d met more than a year ago. The girl that I’d maybe lost my heart to without knowing it. Overwhelmed with emotion, I found her lips again, and we melted into each other. When she was breathless and clinging to me, I knew it was time.