Total pages in book: 108
Estimated words: 103010 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 515(@200wpm)___ 412(@250wpm)___ 343(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 103010 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 515(@200wpm)___ 412(@250wpm)___ 343(@300wpm)
“Holy shit. You’re fucking him now, aren’t you?”
I whipped my head around and looked at him. “What?” How the hell had he known that? “We haven’t said one thing about Finley, and you’ve drawn that conclusion.”
David rolled his eyes, slowed his jog, then began to walk.
“You’re using this as an excuse for a break,” I teased.
“You’re trying to change the subject. And good for you. There’s no reason you shouldn’t have been playing with him all along. You’re crazy if you think I don’t see how much you want him. Even from the start. Taking some random boy home and moving him in? That’s not you, Aidan.”
I groaned because there wasn’t a thing he’d said that wasn’t true. From the moment I saw Finley in the restaurant that first night, everything I’d done was out of the ordinary for me. And I had wanted him from the very first moment I’d seen him. “I still don’t understand how I’m fine brought you to the conclusion that I’m fucking him.”
“Because I know you,” he replied simply. And he did, as much as anyone really knew me, at least. The only one who knew me better was the very boy we were discussing. I wasn’t sure how I felt about that still, but it was done. Finley had deserved to know, and there was no going back.
“We are…mutually fulfilling needs for one another. That’s all it is; just like any scene, really.”
“Yeah, except the boy is head over heels in love with you, lives with you, and you’ve basically been in a relationship for a year. You know, just like with all your other random boys,” he said sarcastically.
He was right. It wasn’t something I did often, but I took a deep breath and let myself be honest, let David in. “I don’t know how to be all that he’ll need.” I could be his Dominant, his employer, the man who put him on his knees, but there wasn’t a doubt in my mind that Finley would want more. He always seemed to want more, and eventually, I found myself giving it to him. It pleased me to provide for him, but outside of sex, dominance, and care, I feared I was empty. That wasn’t easy for me to admit, even to myself—that there were things I couldn’t do.
“I think you’re doing a good job of it so far, Aidan. You’ve cared for that boy for a year now. You’ve provided for him and have been good to him. That’s all there is to it. You just keep doing that.”
“You make it sound simple,” I replied as we weaved our way through the wooded path.
“Oh, God no.” David chuckled. “But you overthink things sometimes, and by sometimes, I mean all the time. Just do what you’re doing, and it’ll be fine. I have faith in you.”
David was a good friend. I was lucky to have him, and I knew that if I allowed myself, I could fully let him in as well. He wouldn’t judge me. Still, it wasn’t something I could do, not yet, so I said, “Thank you. For always being there. I know I’m not always…”
“The most fun guy around?” David teased.
“Fuck you,” I replied with a grin.
“You’re welcome. Now come on. My break is over, so I’d like to get back to showing you up.”
This time, I couldn’t hold back the loud boom of laughter. “You wish,” I replied as we began to run.
Finley hadn’t been home when I got there. I knew he wouldn’t be. He had class and then a couple of errands to run for me, things I could do myself but allowed him to do because it was something he needed.
I showered and dressed, then made a quick trip to the adult store. There were a few things I needed to purchase.
While I hadn’t fucked him yet, Finley had had his mouth on my cock every day since this all began. He was getting better, but he had an easily triggered gag reflex, unless he was blissed out of his mind enough to let go. When he did, when he got to that place where the world around him was all fuzzy except for me and what I demanded of him, the boy stole my breath. He quite honestly always did, which was something I was able to ignore sometimes better than others.
Despite what David said, I knew there were parts of me I couldn’t give, doors that were locked, and as far as I was aware, there were no keys. But what we were doing now, I would gladly continue, because Christ, what the boy did to me.
After grabbing what I needed from the adult store, I paid and went home. I put some of the items in Finley’s room and others in mine. I knew he would be home any moment now, so I stood at the top of the stairs and waited. When he closed the door behind him, I said, “Stop.”