Total pages in book: 152
Estimated words: 155037 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 775(@200wpm)___ 620(@250wpm)___ 517(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 155037 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 775(@200wpm)___ 620(@250wpm)___ 517(@300wpm)
“Thanks for your opinion. Which you like to give often.”
Easton shrugged. “Can’t help being smarter than you, dickhead.”
“Remy was there.”
“What? When you slept with her?”
“I didn’t sleep with her! I kissed her. And I spanked her.”
Easton’s eyes widened.
“That’s . . . that’s the other reason I kept myself back from getting involved with Isa. Because she needs . . . I need . . . look, I didn’t think I could be the Dom she deserves. All right?” He couldn’t spill Isa’s secrets, but he had to talk about this.
And Easton was a vault. What went in would rarely come out.
“I thought she might be a sub. A Little?” Easton waved his hand. “You don’t have to answer that. What’s Remy got to do with this? Are you sure you don’t want me to get rid of him?”
“No, I don’t. She cares about him.” That didn’t hurt to say as much as he thought. “And he feels the same. I think . . . he’s kind of a good guy.”
“What are you saying?”
“We’re going to share her.”
Easton looked flabbergasted. “Seriously? Isa? You’re going to share the love of your life?”
Loki looked around, but it was early on Saturday evening so there weren’t many people here. “Do you want to say it a bit louder? I don’t think Noah heard you in the backroom.”
“Shut up,” Easton muttered. But he spoke quieter. “Are you really okay with that?”
“Didn’t think I would be. But . . . this was tearing her up. I could tell and I hated it. She wants us both which I was angry about to begin with. However, it means someone will be there to make sure I don’t harm her. To keep her safe. And all I want is Isa to be safe.”
Easton whistled quietly. “I can understand that.”
“Yeah?”
“Yep. If I had an Isa, I’d do whatever was necessary to keep her safe. Still, it might be a bit weird. The two of you aren’t . . .”
“I’m not attracted to him, if that’s what you’re asking.”
“Yeah, well, I guessed that. Because if you were gonna be into any man, it would be me.”
Loki rolled his eyes. “He’s also a Dom. So he can, like, show me stuff and things.” This was the awkward part.
“What? That part annoys you more than sharing her? I figured that would be the best part. Unless you’ve secretly been Topping people for years and haven’t said anything. Have you been to a BDSM club before? Done your research?”
“I’ve been doing some research,” he replied. That’s what he’d spent all day yesterday doing. “But he wasn’t just offering to help me Top her.”
Easton frowned. “Then what?”
“He thinks . . . urgh, if I tell you this it’s between us.”
“You know it is.” Easton looked concerned.
“He thinks I’m a switch. That it might help me if I let someone Top me. Let him do it. That it could help me with my control . . . with the memories . . . with quieting everything in my mind.”
Easton was still. Silent for a long time.
“Will you fucking say something?”
“Topping someone can do that too,” he said. “I get that you don’t trust yourself on your own. But in a club setting with someone like Remy monitoring, well, it can help wipe your mind. Give you back a sense of control.”
“Right . . . so you’re saying I shouldn’t consider letting him Top me? That’s what I figured. Dumb idea, right? Me? A switch? No way.”
Then how come he wasn’t really convincing himself?
“Don’t put words in my mouth,” Easton said in a low voice. “There’s nothing to be ashamed of, you know.”
“But you just said . . .”
“I was . . . fuck, I guess I was talking from my own experience. Sometimes, the only time I have a clear head is when I’m at a club, Topping someone. But being a switch . . . it might seem crazy, but it’s not. It doesn’t have to be sexual either.”
“That’s what Remy said. I don’t want to fuck him.”
“He’s calm. Controlled. I’ve rarely seen him show any emotion.”
“I think he feels more than he lets on. It isn’t weird to want to be dominant with Isa, and yet . . .”
“Submit to him? No. Switching is all about your mood, how you feel, your partner. With one person you can be Dominant, with another a sub. Sometimes you might feel like being the one in control, other times you might want it stripped away from you. And if it helps you, if it brings you peace, if it makes you feel good, then why not? So long as Remy and Isa are in.”
“Remy brought it up. He said he’s Topped male subs before.”
“And Isa?”
“I think she wants to watch.”
Easton snorted. “Yeah. I get that.”
“Really, man? Didn’t know you had a desire to see my dick.”