Camden (Pittsburgh Titans #8) Read Online Sawyer Bennett

Categories Genre: Contemporary, Sports Tags Authors: Series: Pittsburgh Titans Series by Sawyer Bennett
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Total pages in book: 89
Estimated words: 84200 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 421(@200wpm)___ 337(@250wpm)___ 281(@300wpm)
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Travis hightails it up the stairs with his shoes in hand and I can’t resist. “And don’t just throw them in there,” I yell up at him.

I hear the distinct thump of them being unceremoniously dumped and shake my head.

I’ll give him a pass on that one because he’s nine years old and the last thing I want to be considered is overbearing. After Mitch died, it was only natural to me to gather Travis in close, but sometimes I went overboard and almost proverbially suffocated him. Not with too much love, born of fear that I could lose him in the blink of an eye the way I lost my husband, but with rules and structure. I thought if I could control my environment, which included keeping Travis in a rigid box, I could keep him alive and safe.

It was only through intense counseling for me individually, Travis individually and then both of us together that I learned to loosen the reins I’d involuntarily contracted inward. It’s a victory for me to be content he put his shoes in the closet, even if they’re thrown in there without thought or care to keep it neat.

It’s also a big deal for me to be able to let him go out and be a nine-year-old without my blanket of protection around him.

God, I know it’s silly to think that if I’m not near him he’s in danger. But for some reason, I went through a period where I thought Mitch dying in a plane crash was somehow my fault. It was fucked-up thinking, but therapy helped so much.

Doesn’t mean that I still don’t have my demons scratching to get out, though.

Travis hurtles back down the stairs. I wince because I realize one of his shoes is untied and I have a fleeting image of him falling on the stairs and breaking his neck, but I stuff it away. He reaches the bottom safely and I must have that look on my face… the one that says I’m in fear mode, even if it’s brief.

It sucks the life out of me when my son sees it… recognizes it… and then throws his arms around my waist. At nine and with his dad’s height, he’s able to lay his head on my shoulder. “I love you, Mom.”

“Love you too, kiddo,” I whisper as I pull him in close. I relish these times, even if it’s my basket full of crazy thinking that prompts it. I’ve been forewarned by Reba that boys turn into monsters when they hit double digits, so I cherish this while it lasts.

“Come on,” Travis says with excitement as he releases me. He rushes to the door and grabs his duffel bag with his hockey gear along with the stick propped against the wall.

He glances over his shoulder at me and the sun pouring in from the side pane of glass makes his blond hair shine. My heart catches because he looks so much like Mitch, right down to the lopsided grin I’ve loved for most of my life. It’s as if I’m staring at his younger doppelgänger, back in the days when we’d go fishing together as little kids.

Travis dashes out the door and the illusion of my dead husband is broken. There’s the inevitable punch of pain as the loss hits me—although it’s not as strong as it once was—and I move on. I have an amazing son and far too much to be grateful for these days to wallow.

On the way to the outdoor ice rink, Travis chatters about the upcoming start of the youth hockey league. He was slated to begin last year but the plane crash derailed everything. We were both so out of it with grief and then all the ways our lives were disrupted financially, the start of the season passed by without me even realizing. When I mentioned it to Travis, he wasn’t interested and my heart bled. He and Mitch had looked forward to Travis playing competitively, especially since the kid had been ice skating since he could walk.

But this year’s different. When registration opened, Travis was beyond giddy about joining. I definitely had to tighten up my budget to afford it because hockey is expensive, but the smile on his face was worth it.

Today’s just a fun day on the ice with some school friends to scrimmage. It was organized by one of the youth hockey moms whose son is in Travis’s third grade class.

As we pull into the parking lot, Travis nearly jumps out of the car before I come to a full stop.

“Whoa there, buddy,” I exclaim and he groans with frustration as he looks out the window.

“Mom… they’re already on the ice.” He looks over his shoulder at me plaintively, poised to throw the door open.

I give him my best mom look. “Give me ten seconds… geez.”


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