Total pages in book: 362
Estimated words: 347293 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1736(@200wpm)___ 1389(@250wpm)___ 1158(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 347293 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 1736(@200wpm)___ 1389(@250wpm)___ 1158(@300wpm)
“It is up to you.”
“Well, that’s not a helpful answer.”
He chuckled. “It’s the truth. You can…choose,” he said, and I rolled my eyes, “to answer or not.”
I turned my head to the side. “You do.”
A tight, icy smile appeared. “Only because anyone who summons a Primal of Death does so at their own risk.”
I remembered him telling me that before. Anyone summoning a Primal of Death usually wanted something terrible.
“There is no wrong or right way to handle it. Only what you’re comfortable with,” he added as my gaze lowered. “And you can change your mind at any time. You will, however, need to assign gods you trust to act on your behalf.”
I nodded, thinking things over. Obviously, the smartest thing to do would be to not answer the summons in person. That way, I could be more objective and…responsible.
And possibly prevent a Kolis-type situation down the road.
“It is rare for the summonses to reach us,” Ash added. “It does take the type of desperation most are lucky not to feel.” He looped his other arm around me. “I imagine you don’t have the highest opinion of my father after hearing that.”
“No, that’s not the case. I mean, I honestly don’t know what to think of any of that,” I admitted as I traced a circle on his forearm. “I can’t exactly judge him. It would be difficult to ignore the pleas of the mourning when you could do something to ease their pain.” Once more, I thought about my conversation with Aios. “And I was thinking earlier about how one decides when to grant life and when not to—like, obviously, the ability would not have been shared if the Ancients hadn’t wanted it to be used. And that can never be an easy decision to make.” I tipped my head back. “It was one I never wanted to be in charge of making.”
He kissed my brow. “Most would not want that responsibility.”
“I was also thinking that maybe how someone dies plays a role,” I told him. “Like if the death is unnatural or…unjust.”
“I don’t think my father ever figured out for sure when it was and wasn’t right to do so, but I don’t think you’ll struggle as much as he did.”
“Why is that?”
“Because you don’t have his ego.”
I snorted. “Really?”
“Let me rephrase that,” he said. “You don’t want to be worshipped.”
“You’re right about that, and also wrong.”
“You don’t want to be worshipped by anyone but me.”
“Exactly.”
He kissed my temple and then settled beside me. “Are you sure you’re ready to go in front of the people tomorrow?”
“I am.” My stomach tumbled a bit. “I mean, I’m nervous about it. I’ve never done anything like it. But I am ready.”
“Okay.” His fingers slid back down my arm. “I just don’t want you to feel overwhelmed.”
“I know.” His consideration reminded me of something. “I didn’t get a chance to thank you.”
“For what?”
I smiled. “For starting the meeting when I couldn’t.”
“You don’t need to thank me for that.”
“Yes, I do,” I insisted. “You stopped me from looking more unprepared than necessary.”
“Liessa,” Ash began.
“I’m being serious.” I placed my hands on his chest, feeling his cold skin beneath his shirt. “Look, I’m not being too hard on myself. I panicked a little, which I’m sure you picked up on.”
Ash raised a brow.
“You jumped in without making it a big deal,” I continued. “And that gave me time to find my footing.”
“I get what you’re saying, but I only did what I needed to do for you,” he replied, tucking the hair that had fallen forward behind my ear. “I only did what I should do. That is never something you need to thank me for.”
My lips pursed. “I’m still going to thank you when you do things you ‘should’ have done.”
“Figured,” he stated blandly.
“Perhaps instead of vocalizing my thanks, I could show you?” I suggested.
Eather brightened in his eyes. “As long as you’re still using your mouth, I’ll have no complaints.”
A small, shocked giggle snuck free. “Pervert.”
“Been called worse.”
Laughing, I clasped his cheeks and kissed him. His cool breath mingled with mine, creating an intoxicating blend. A rush of desire surged, sending a current of pulsing pleasure through me that seemed to travel from my mouth to every inch of my body.
“How much time do you think we have before supper?” I asked.
“Not nearly long enough to do what I want.” The smoky arousal in his voice caused muscles low in my stomach to curl. “Which is to strip you down and fuck you on this table.”
My entire body flushed at the prospect. “That’s too bad.”
“Yes.” His lips coasted over mine.
“But I do think we have time for an appetizer.”
Ash drew back, his brows furrowing as I slid off the table and lowered myself to my knees in front of him. “I’m not sure what you on your knees has to do with an appetizer.”