Total pages in book: 95
Estimated words: 89592 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 448(@200wpm)___ 358(@250wpm)___ 299(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 89592 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 448(@200wpm)___ 358(@250wpm)___ 299(@300wpm)
“Clay,” I cry, coming all over him again.
I dig my heel in deep, pulling a groan from his lips. “Fuck yeah, baby. Give it to me, Sid.”
“I’m coming,” I cry out the obvious.
“That’s my girl. Now you’re ready to see where I can really take you,” he coos.
“What?” I gasp hoarsely.
He chuckles, spilling into me. I open my mouth on a silent scream when his release triggers another from me. I’m wrung out, there’s no way he can be serious.
He has to be kidding.
Chapter 28
Don’t Run
Clayton
I grit my teeth in self-loathing. I went too far last night. It shifted something in me when Sidney defied me while I spanked her ass. I realized I didn’t want to spank and fuck the defiance out of her. I didn’t even want to rein in her defiance to my control. It’s one of the things I love about her.
Which leads me to my other problem. Sidney owns me. I’m in love with her. The moment she gave herself to me, when she trusted me to bring her unlimited pleasure, I knew. I’ve fallen for her. She took my heart right from my chest.
I know how hard it is for her to trust. I see how much she needs to be in control. I’ve watched her slowly allow me to take care of her and I don’t think she’s been aware of me doing it.
Our first round was a reward for her trust. However, what I did to Sidney and her body after that round on the swing, I’ll admit—I might be ashamed. I took her everywhere, in every way, without mercy.
Her body was a playground I refused to leave. I spilled my seed in her, on her, anywhere I could to mark her as mine. I pulled toy after toy to aid in the destruction and recreation of Sidney’s sexual DNA. She’s a new woman, I made sure of it.
Now, I’m not proud of what I did. I released a darker shade of myself. The punishment I placed on her body was to feed my demons as much as it was to show her her Olympus of pleasure.
God, did her body sing like a goddess. I was the god of her desires and indulged her in a way that I know no other man has been or will ever be outside of me. Still, I fear it was too much.
I don’t know how she feels about what I unleashed on her last night. Once she passed out, she remained asleep in my arms for the rest of the night. She didn’t even stir when I carried her up to our bedroom in the wee hours of the morning.
I got up for a run when I couldn’t take lying there listening to my own thoughts any longer. My worst fears came to life last night. I’ve always been cautious with the women I bed, never wanting to take things too far. Never wanting to push beyond their boundaries.
Now that I’m willing to admit to myself that I love Sid, I don’t want my bullshit to send her running from me. I know what the contract says, but if she truly wanted to leave, I wouldn’t stop her.
I pound the pavement harder. Sweat drenches my face, but I ignore it. I welcome the agony my body is starting to feel. It’s the least I deserve.
I grunt when my phone rings. Looking, I see it’s Gregor. His ass has been gone long enough. Whatever is going on with him, he’s dragged my mother out of the country for it. I need my mother here to put a leash on my meddling father. Something about last night has been chafing me.
“Hello,” I say into the phone after I tap my Bluetooth.
“Why do you sound so pissed off? It’s too early in the morning,” my brother greets.
“I went too far,” I state simply.
Gregor sighs, remaining silent on the other end for a few moments. I know he understands what I’m saying to him. My brother knows me better than anyone.
“Did you hurt her?”
“No, not in any way that didn’t bring her pleasure.” I frown at my reply.
“Then what’s the problem?”
“I pushed her, and I mean, hard. I was unyielding. She had no choice but to submit in the end,” I huff.
“But did she willingly do so?” Gregor asks cautiously.
“Yes,” I say tightly.
“She’s a big girl. She made a choice,” he responds.
“You know the problem,” I bite out.
“Which is why I say again. She’s a big girl, she consented to it. You were both consenting adults. As your conquests have always been.” He tries to reassure me but only pisses me off further.
“She’s not a conquest,” I snap.
“So I’m gathering. Tell me this, what’s the real problem?”
“I…I didn’t know I would fall for her,” I admit aloud. “Everything has changed. She’s been sleeping in my bed since the first night.”